"Oh no, look, Laura is about to be happy, better get her..."

Life has not been easy lately. And it has tought me a lot.

Yesterday, was one of the most horrible day. And it was just too much for me to handle.
I have been suffering from a sickness for 2 years, and because of this illness, i am now very weak and in really bad health. My mum is worried to death because of this and it makes me feel horrible because i can't do anything about it. This sickness controls me completely.
My sister is raising her baby alone, which is also worrying my mum, we have to help her because her appartement was too expansive, she was supposed to live there with someone else but he won't be there for her anymore.
Someone yesterday hurt me with hateful words. I keep hearing them in my mind and it really hurts me. When someone you love from the bottom of your heart can hurt you that much by only saying words, it is really hard to get over it. I still can not believe some of the things he said to me and it still really hurts me.
A few hours after that, my aunt just called us to tell us that she had rent the house in Los Angeles. Yes, three days before our arrival. This house has always been very important to me. It is home, it is where i feel good and free, it is where i have the best memories. I am the happiest i could be when i am there. And i was waiting to go there, to forget about my sickness, try not to worry about my mother, my sister, my sickness.
And i just feel like it was too good to be true. Like i wasn't alloud to be happy again.

Yesterday was a horrible day. I don't think i had cried that much since a very long time.
But when i woke up this morning, i just started thinking.
Breathing deeply, and thinking.
And i told myself:
Yes, life is hard. But you know what? You are stronger than you think you are. Life is hard. Yes.
But falling into tears, being disapointed and angry won't take you anywhere.
You might be upset, sad, you might scream and shout. But then what ? In the end, you will get nothing.
You might as well take the best of what you've got and think about what can still make you feel like it is going to be fine.
When life gives you lemon, make lemonade.
This is not going to break me down. I won't let all of this bring me down.
My sister found a new job, the baby is in good health, she found a new appartement and most importantly, we, her family, are and will always be here for her. I can not stand to see her sad, but she will find her way back and everything is going to be fine because she has us.
I have a family who loves me and who belives i will get better and i will be stronger than my sickness. It's a very hard battle, if you only know what i went and am still going through... But i believe i will get better and i believe i am going to beat this sickness. Because i believe in me.
I have been thinking about that speacial someone who hurt me. And i am just going to listen to my best  friend, who told me yesterday: "Maybe things will get worked out. If not, then it wasnt meant to be."
I need to take the time to think about what happened.
Maybe it is time for me to let a distence between me and this house in Los Angeles. It is true that it is where i feel the happiest, it is home. But it should not be like that. Yes, i am disapointed and sad because i thought it would help me not to think about my sickness, but now, it is the way it is and it is not in my hands anymore so i'm gonna take the best of it. I am going to Los Angeles, the city i  have been in love with ever since i was born. I am going to feel good and be happy. We have not figured out where we are going to stay yet, but we have options.
There are always more options in life than you think.
We will figure it out. Life has decided not to let me be happy ? Well suck it up, because i am about to be stronger.

Always remember. Do not let the bad, negative things bring you down. There are always other options, there is always a bright side in every single situation.
Remember: When life gives you lemon, make lemonade
Yes, life is hard sometimes. But you know what? You are stronger than you think you are. Life is hard. Yes. But falling into tears, being disapointed and angry won't take you anywhere.

You might be upset, sad, you might scream and shout. But then what ? In the end, you will get nothing.

You might as well take the best of what you've got and think about what can still make you feel like it is going to be fine. Life could be worst.